Yesterday, I was obviously grateful for a chance to mow down on some Mike’s Pastries. The sugar-rush combined with my exhaustion and stress literally resulted in a panic attack, but I STILL think it was worth it!!! It was so good!
Lately, I’m pretty worried about contingency plans myself. What if I don’t get into any PhD programs? What will that mean? What will I do then?
It’s better if I don’t think like that right now. Instead, I’m going to finish my work at the Dean’s office for the semester, work on my paper, and look forward to a couple of hours out with friends tonight. Hopefully. everyone will bring some fun, lighthearted conversation and avoid ranting about school and teaching, in which case it will be a great night and I’m looking forward. 
I’m sorry that you had a panic attack. But, what a delicious way to go!